My Replay 25' Playlist
Dream Report 1# 2025
Im pulling out from my brain what I can still remember before the dream vanishes from memory, just follow the little paragraphs chronologically:
i was working in what seemed to be a very messy office like a factory or sweat software shop, i wasnt doing much because i was idling from my work
saw a group of pepple sitting on the big gathering table, decided to join them, turns out to be they were talking about the interesting topics of the world, such as whos running the world
I tell them the world is governmed by 3 races, humans, lizards and a 3rd one which are interdimensional beings, but these last ones are unable to reach our reality they life in another reality
the public was at first agreeing with me and excited about the topic too, some of the people sitting had totally opposing views to me but for some reason this topic brought us all together regarding our differences and i was super happy for that, it was an exciting discussion for everyone present!!, then right after a minute or so and like clockwork they suddenly became totally silent, stand up, and each one of them returned to their posts in total sepulcral silence
it was very strange for me to see such weird sudden chage of behavior, kinda robotical, i went to the main area or lobby, there was a job acquaitance sitting down there, then after i sat down with him he told me "you really screwed it up this time!, like you werent doing your job at all" and i was totally confused?? because everyone else were goofing around too, so what gives???
then suddenly a lady from HR appears and tell me to go help her interview alongside my manager a young boy which initially decided to not apply for my position
after i arrive at his office he was idling too and totally lost, they pulled him away and made him cook some biscuits??? with my boss praising his cooking skills in a little portable grill that was there????
the weird humiliation interview begins and he is even more confused, then they ask me if im willing to exchange my job with him, i knew this was a bad moment so ive said in a very serious tone "Well.." then i got interrumpted right away by this guy, and he directly said in a very scary voice like he just saw a ghost or something "I.... i dont want... to work here and I prefer to just leave so im not interested in her position...... thank you", the guy left running leaving them hanging and
the humilliation was shifted directly to the HR/manager who instantly turned their views saw me with rage eyes because they had to still keep me aboard , they had no choice
everyone walked away and i went back to my idle counter area... in the way I told the HR lady "well that didnt went well right? I guess im staying for a bit longer while you find someone to replace and fire me?"
she snapped right there and told me "YES I WANT TO GET RID OF YOU im gonna make sure to make your life here a living hell and you WILL regret for doing this!!" for sure regret of what i just did but what did I do??, i was never given an answer!! I was totally confused but the hostility left little room for second guesses, it was clear as water i was disliked a lot...
She then said "I need a younger brain... your brain is too old already and you know nothing you are useless" and i was like "pardon me???" as she began to walk even faster to get away from me until eventually vanished
I was shocked but i acted tough the best way i could so brushed it off like no big deal, from here on the nightmare/dream becomes garbled or abstract like the tape is about to end
I woke up just now with an inmense feelings of dread and despair, like i was just tortured mentally and somehow made it alive back into the safety of my bed...??
went for a glass of water and grabbed the bible....
what happened there.???
i was working in what seemed to be a very messy office like a factory or sweat software shop, i wasnt doing much because i was idling from my work
saw a group of pepple sitting on the big gathering table, decided to join them, turns out to be they were talking about the interesting topics of the world, such as whos running the world
I tell them the world is governmed by 3 races, humans, lizards and a 3rd one which are interdimensional beings, but these last ones are unable to reach our reality they life in another reality
the public was at first agreeing with me and excited about the topic too, some of the people sitting had totally opposing views to me but for some reason this topic brought us all together regarding our differences and i was super happy for that, it was an exciting discussion for everyone present!!, then right after a minute or so and like clockwork they suddenly became totally silent, stand up, and each one of them returned to their posts in total sepulcral silence
it was very strange for me to see such weird sudden chage of behavior, kinda robotical, i went to the main area or lobby, there was a job acquaitance sitting down there, then after i sat down with him he told me "you really screwed it up this time!, like you werent doing your job at all" and i was totally confused?? because everyone else were goofing around too, so what gives???
then suddenly a lady from HR appears and tell me to go help her interview alongside my manager a young boy which initially decided to not apply for my position
after i arrive at his office he was idling too and totally lost, they pulled him away and made him cook some biscuits??? with my boss praising his cooking skills in a little portable grill that was there????
the weird humiliation interview begins and he is even more confused, then they ask me if im willing to exchange my job with him, i knew this was a bad moment so ive said in a very serious tone "Well.." then i got interrumpted right away by this guy, and he directly said in a very scary voice like he just saw a ghost or something "I.... i dont want... to work here and I prefer to just leave so im not interested in her position...... thank you", the guy left running leaving them hanging and
the humilliation was shifted directly to the HR/manager who instantly turned their views saw me with rage eyes because they had to still keep me aboard , they had no choice
everyone walked away and i went back to my idle counter area... in the way I told the HR lady "well that didnt went well right? I guess im staying for a bit longer while you find someone to replace and fire me?"
she snapped right there and told me "YES I WANT TO GET RID OF YOU im gonna make sure to make your life here a living hell and you WILL regret for doing this!!" for sure regret of what i just did but what did I do??, i was never given an answer!! I was totally confused but the hostility left little room for second guesses, it was clear as water i was disliked a lot...
She then said "I need a younger brain... your brain is too old already and you know nothing you are useless" and i was like "pardon me???" as she began to walk even faster to get away from me until eventually vanished
I was shocked but i acted tough the best way i could so brushed it off like no big deal, from here on the nightmare/dream becomes garbled or abstract like the tape is about to end
I woke up just now with an inmense feelings of dread and despair, like i was just tortured mentally and somehow made it alive back into the safety of my bed...??
went for a glass of water and grabbed the bible....
what happened there.???
Poor Computers
I wanted to write this as I was actually setting up the revamped version of the kiyomizu psobb site, and while doing so I did it in a way I had to jump across 2 platforms, return to the year 2005 and come back again to 2025 to finish setting everything up.
I will write more about it in the following post, but I just wanted to say one thing.... Windows XP saved the day (once again), and why is that?
How much computer do you really need for your tasks? and how horrible and sluggish computers are turning out to be, for office work, for gaming, all while at the same time the user experience while using the devices is NOT IMPROVING whatsoever.
If anything using a computer nowadays is more limiting and more difficult than using one 20+ years ago!!!!!
What happened to all of us?? are we insane????? Right now to have some sort of basic office functionality you have to pay an incredible beefy subscription of Microsoft 365 just to have Word and Excel?
What about photo editing? Are you ready to sell your soul to Adobe for a whole year or face paying a costly fine if you bail out?????
The only thing that did changed is that now most of these functions are achieved via webapps, but I really doubt about their usefulness, do you really REALLY think you gonna do PivotTables and Macros on Excel Web or Google Sheets???
My only solace is to ask some AI about all this problems and expect a solution!!! but why!?!?
I'm really just asking these questions in a very ironic way, the real culprit of this is the real one affecting absolutely everything else in our daily life,
You will live in a walled garden using applications that are poor copycats of more complete software packages with an 'improved modern' UI (rounded corners) (FFS) that are created by a mixture of activitsts 'programmers' and indians using AI prompts to do the code grunt.
What do you expect? performance? Size?
NO!!!! GOD DAMMIT!!!! ITS OVER!!!
I will write more about it in the following post, but I just wanted to say one thing.... Windows XP saved the day (once again), and why is that?
How much computer do you really need for your tasks? and how horrible and sluggish computers are turning out to be, for office work, for gaming, all while at the same time the user experience while using the devices is NOT IMPROVING whatsoever.
If anything using a computer nowadays is more limiting and more difficult than using one 20+ years ago!!!!!
What happened to all of us?? are we insane????? Right now to have some sort of basic office functionality you have to pay an incredible beefy subscription of Microsoft 365 just to have Word and Excel?
What about photo editing? Are you ready to sell your soul to Adobe for a whole year or face paying a costly fine if you bail out?????
The only thing that did changed is that now most of these functions are achieved via webapps, but I really doubt about their usefulness, do you really REALLY think you gonna do PivotTables and Macros on Excel Web or Google Sheets???
My only solace is to ask some AI about all this problems and expect a solution!!! but why!?!?
I'm really just asking these questions in a very ironic way, the real culprit of this is the real one affecting absolutely everything else in our daily life,
You will live in a walled garden using applications that are poor copycats of more complete software packages with an 'improved modern' UI (rounded corners) (FFS) that are created by a mixture of activitsts 'programmers' and indians using AI prompts to do the code grunt.
What do you expect? performance? Size?
NO!!!! GOD DAMMIT!!!! ITS OVER!!!
There are no more games.
Well, the title is a little strange but hear me out, last year I actually managed to snatch a Steam Deck for the first time and at first I was very excited I could play and bring with me all my PC games anywhere, much like I do with the rest of my gadgets in my pocket world.
However after the first half of last year I began to notice I was mostly playing old games on the Deck and smartphone games on my iPad, why is that? The last proper new AAA title I bought on steam(full price and everything) was actually Resident Evil 4 RE and GranblueFantasy Relink and VS Rising. (and this year so far only VF5 REVO but thats a 20 year old game too!) so where are my stellar new games???...
I notice theres a horrible lack of proper stories and gameplay that are actually able to 'disconnect' you enough to actually get into the game for hours and hours or days even so it's becoming more and more difficult (at least for me) to play new games.
I thought it was only something from my side but i've noticed several people on the net complaining about exactly the same, there are no good stories now at least in the mainstream CS games (console games),
then what is the alternative? Nintendo? oh no, not Nintendo!! children these days aren't really interested in Nintendo so the majority of the Nintendo demographic that I've seem are manchild and groomers clinging to the usual Nintendo IPs, Mario, Zelda, Metroid and whatnot. Nintendo is going the same path as Disney and LEGO....
The few Alpha kids I've met in recent times are more interested in doomscrolling TikTok, Fortnite or directly in the Skibidi Toilet,
in fact im pretty sure they decided to make up these silly brainrots of pure boredom due how boring and annoying the shows and stuff catered for younger audiences had become due of being overtaken the millenial/zoomer kidult crew and trying to shove everyone with the usual alphabet manifestos, marxism and shit like that...
So where to go if you wanna play mature games??, Mobile Games of course! since the space is very competitive theres no place here for DEI or watered down stories, games have improved a lot in quality and are catering to a more adult public,
The problem with these games in my opinion is the game loop itself is still very basic so it feels like you are playing only Visual Novels, but things are changing with games like GFL2, ZZZ, NIKKE, Blue Archive and such.
However after the first half of last year I began to notice I was mostly playing old games on the Deck and smartphone games on my iPad, why is that? The last proper new AAA title I bought on steam(full price and everything) was actually Resident Evil 4 RE and GranblueFantasy Relink and VS Rising. (and this year so far only VF5 REVO but thats a 20 year old game too!) so where are my stellar new games???...
I notice theres a horrible lack of proper stories and gameplay that are actually able to 'disconnect' you enough to actually get into the game for hours and hours or days even so it's becoming more and more difficult (at least for me) to play new games.
I thought it was only something from my side but i've noticed several people on the net complaining about exactly the same, there are no good stories now at least in the mainstream CS games (console games),
then what is the alternative? Nintendo? oh no, not Nintendo!! children these days aren't really interested in Nintendo so the majority of the Nintendo demographic that I've seem are manchild and groomers clinging to the usual Nintendo IPs, Mario, Zelda, Metroid and whatnot. Nintendo is going the same path as Disney and LEGO....
The few Alpha kids I've met in recent times are more interested in doomscrolling TikTok, Fortnite or directly in the Skibidi Toilet,
in fact im pretty sure they decided to make up these silly brainrots of pure boredom due how boring and annoying the shows and stuff catered for younger audiences had become due of being overtaken the millenial/zoomer kidult crew and trying to shove everyone with the usual alphabet manifestos, marxism and shit like that...
Reisa my beloved 🫂 pic.twitter.com/ANajTe9xAu
— Maririn~ (@TopGyaru) December 1, 2024
So where to go if you wanna play mature games??, Mobile Games of course! since the space is very competitive theres no place here for DEI or watered down stories, games have improved a lot in quality and are catering to a more adult public,
The problem with these games in my opinion is the game loop itself is still very basic so it feels like you are playing only Visual Novels, but things are changing with games like GFL2, ZZZ, NIKKE, Blue Archive and such.
Navigating ...
Many longtime readers and haters of this blog (mostly haters) always looking forward to record my rants to use them agaisnt me later in the future? know very well they get triggered by my stance agaisnt LGBT, leftism, socialism and whatnot, used to make fun of them calling them, trannies, retards, faggits just to trigger them. In retaliation they call me a trump supporter, schizo, weirdo, etc etc
However, at the tail end of last year and seeing how the world events are about to unfold for everyone I decided I'm just gonna take it easy, gonna watch anime, manga, stay away from uglyfied games full of DEI trash, play my old games via emulation and focus on more basic stuff (taking a long long mental vacation and disconnect), things are gonna get more and more insane in the world this year...
Why the sudden change?
Very simple, theres nothing we can do, we all got played (including myself) (in fact, i'm not even pro trump/alex jones anymore) and I think everyone in a way or another will begin to suffer a lot and I honestly became tired of trying to in a way 'shake them?' by triggering them, I've noticed many people, friends and acquitances too are very long gone for example still wearing masks, vaccinated, zombified by the tv, and probaly they think the same about me too(no, no, most likely cat have nod oubt anout it!).
I'm not gonna argue with them anymore,
So I'm here enjoying the bizarre ride, is like being on a train and through the window I see another train with them in other tracks but they go somewhere else and I lose view of them as I head to yet an unknown destination.
The internet supposedly was gonna be our biggest tool to be together, how naive I was, everyone got fucking atomized, I wish I could talk to little me in 1999 all excited connecting to internet at middle school at the computer laboratory and let her know about this.
"I wanna make a website!!, I want to connect with people!!" seriously little cat? lol
At the very least dont get stabbed by a cannibal out there okay?
However, at the tail end of last year and seeing how the world events are about to unfold for everyone I decided I'm just gonna take it easy, gonna watch anime, manga, stay away from uglyfied games full of DEI trash, play my old games via emulation and focus on more basic stuff (taking a long long mental vacation and disconnect), things are gonna get more and more insane in the world this year...
I take back anything I said about 1960s Japanese Television. pic.twitter.com/o9IlGlBjde
— Kenny Lauderdale (@KennyLauderdal3) January 15, 2025
Why the sudden change?
Very simple, theres nothing we can do, we all got played (including myself) (in fact, i'm not even pro trump/alex jones anymore) and I think everyone in a way or another will begin to suffer a lot and I honestly became tired of trying to in a way 'shake them?' by triggering them, I've noticed many people, friends and acquitances too are very long gone for example still wearing masks, vaccinated, zombified by the tv, and probaly they think the same about me too(no, no, most likely cat have nod oubt anout it!).
I'm not gonna argue with them anymore,
So I'm here enjoying the bizarre ride, is like being on a train and through the window I see another train with them in other tracks but they go somewhere else and I lose view of them as I head to yet an unknown destination.
The internet supposedly was gonna be our biggest tool to be together, how naive I was, everyone got fucking atomized, I wish I could talk to little me in 1999 all excited connecting to internet at middle school at the computer laboratory and let her know about this.
"I wanna make a website!!, I want to connect with people!!" seriously little cat? lol
At the very least dont get stabbed by a cannibal out there okay?
